my ramdom Q

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What if I was born as a frog?
ans: I would be so glad if I was born as a frog cuz I would have a much more simple life without haveing to be so stressed about it. but I think I would miss the choir club in my school, classical music that make me feel free, my family, some of the ppl I do respect but anyway I would live as a simple frog and just do my best role in the ecosystem in the world and don't do any harm to others.

My own weblog!

Hey, hey, hey, this is the first time I have the chance to do anything I want here, my blog. I hope I could cure my depression and risen my self-esteem level soon here. I've just discovered about my myself that I have a really low self-esteem and also a minor depression(I guess). cuz I don't have enough courage to tell other ppl about my thoughts and ideas. It's like living in hell, u know, awaring about all things u do or say cuz you don't want to dissapoint sb or embarass urself and feel guity about your stupidity.... --they all cause stress and the feelings that you're not worth living.

All I want u to know is that I need to write and express my thoughts here before I've lost all my self-esteem and commit suicide(no, I don't want to die now, but maybe if I continue eating unconsciously, getting even more obese, still can't lose weight, hate the way I am and being not sure about my future that whether I'm gonna be rich and be able to live on my unsure salary I'll get. The thing is that I can't stand watching ppl who r rich(richer then me) spending their money for their convenience but the chance isn't mine at any time.