Hey, hey, hey, this is the first time I have the chance to do anything I want here, my blog. I hope I could cure my depression and risen my self-esteem level soon here. I've just discovered about my myself that I have a really low self-esteem and also a minor depression(I guess). cuz I don't have enough courage to tell other ppl about my thoughts and ideas. It's like living in hell, u know, awaring about all things u do or say cuz you don't want to dissapoint sb or embarass urself and feel guity about your stupidity.... --they all cause stress and the feelings that you're not worth living.
All I want u to know is that I need to write and express my thoughts here before I've lost all my self-esteem and commit suicide(no, I don't want to die now, but maybe if I continue eating unconsciously, getting even more obese, still can't lose weight, hate the way I am and being not sure about my future that whether I'm gonna be rich and be able to live on my unsure salary I'll get. The thing is that I can't stand watching ppl who r rich(richer then me) spending their money for their convenience but the chance isn't mine at any time.
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This is also my first blog post, I love it here now. It made me calm.
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